This post is a bit more honest than most, a bit darker.

I'm struggling right now. Mentally amd emotionally. I'm really not sure how much I more I can take.

I don't know how to explain it exactly because I have so much to be happy about, proud of. I have 5 wonderful children, a career I love, enough of everything.

Yet, I'm not happy. I don't think I know how to be. Maybe I forgot. Maybe I never knew. All I know is that right now, in this moment, I feel like I am sinking. I know how to save everyone except myself and there is no one to save me.